this year has been surrounded by death!!!

i just found out this morning that a friend from high school died in a car accident.... i think that has got to be the worst, he was 25 like me. that is way too young!!!

so far this year, i have had a friend murdered on her front porch (not solved), a grandfather die from natural causes and a life long family friend die from cancer. Now Travis dies at 25. i think i have been lucky, before this year, i have never experienced a death. it really makes you evaluate your life, your being, the space you take up in this world. it seems like everyone will be here forever, but that cant be further from the truth. it all happens so quick....murder, illness, an accident. it's selfish, to be so sad, so torn up when someone goes but you cant help it. even though it was there time, it seems like it cant be real. how can they be gone? where did they go? its too hard to even imagine that they die and you lose everything but your memories. one thing that keeps me going is to believe that they can see me and hear me, whether they can or not i have to believe it. it keeps me going, keeps my sanity. NO MORE DEATH!!! I cannot deal with it, i dont want to!!! I know thats selfish, but i need all of my friends and family.

i am sitting here with tears in my eyes, i'm not a saint. i am just a person growing and trying to figure out why bad things happen to such good people. and people like me who are a mess seem to have all the breaks. dont get me wrong, i am greatful, but why? i question things that dont seem fair....... it just seems like its not fair, not equal....

Giorgia(in black) - 21 murdered in cold blood 2 weeks after this photo was taken...

"Blessed are the dead which die in the Lord from henceforth: Yea, saith the Spirit, that they may rest from their labours; and their works do follow them."(Revelation 14:13)







Travis Lee Popejoy, 25 years old. Died in a car accident in Tempe, AZ.

"He will swallow up death in victory: and the Lord God will wipe away tears from off faces, ..."(Isaiah 25:8)