its funny how things happen. its just that sometimes something seeming so big and meaningful, turn out to be nothing. it's those times when you dont think anything significant will come, it does. i love that about life, that u dont even have to make or create things in your life, they just find you. the people who are supposed to be in your life, just find you. and those that need you, you just find. its the little tiny things that make life and people and places so awesome. the more i live, the more i know. And simple, really is true. i dont even really know where im going with all of this, but im in a good place in my life. thats kinda ironic too... i just had a friend ask me how i am doing so well after my dad has died. but i couldnt anwser that. i still cant. all i know is that i feel an inner calmness. im not upset, although i do get that way at times.... im not crying daily like i was for about a month... the people in my life have just helped so much...

buffy, you have been a life saver. you have no idea how much you mean to me.

bradley, you were the first person who comforted me when i came back, and you have everyday since then. connections like ours are rare, and so special.

ashley, you are my bestest friend! you will never know how much your firendship has brought to me. i hope that i can someday repay you for all the kindness you have given.

mom, you are just an older version of me. or do i say that i am just a mini-you??
thnak you for being the person that i can come to. i know none of this has been easy on you either. i appreciate you and all that you are.

aunt cheryl, you're like my mom. you were there the second i was born, and you have been with me my entire life. good times and bad, i know i can count on you. you and uncle d have NO idea what it means to me to have the 2 of you. its like a second family all over again. and now, you are all i have left of my daddy. i love it when you say i am just like him. i really am. i know he is gone, but not forgotten. i love u auntie.

at times i honestly overflow with wonderful feelings of gratitude, and joy. its these times when i know that i am my heart and my soul and my meaning are truely aligned with what is meant for me. i think that when u align yourself with what you really want, things just get so much easier. i dont really kno9w what i am trying to say here, i am just a bumbbleing idiot at this point. so i bid u adu