what am i learning?

i caught myself laying in bed this morning wondering what i am learn from what is going on in my life right now. without getting too detailed, i have a lot of stuff going on in my life, a loved one's disability, an immature 'family member', a relationship that can't stand alone, taking responsibility for my actions, loss of a close friend, and wondering where i am 'going'.

sometimes, taking the stance that you just want to forget, isn't the best. and right now, i am figuring that i won't even forget if i wanted to. people are funny. you think sometimes that things and situations will be very harmonious, but they turn out so differently. the shock from the dynamite can send me over the edge really quick. i realize that most of this makes no sense, but trust me, it does.

so back to my original question... what am i learning? well, i have learned that honesty is really important. i feel so much better when i have been honest and direct about things, feelings and situations. in a whole being honest just prevents you from being hurt any further. and as an added bonus, you feel so much better about yourself when you have told the truth to someone, and to yourself. i recognize how truly valuable i am. when anyone clearly mistreats me, i have one thing to say. i have told many people lately that they will not continue to treat me in the manner that they are accustomed. for the most part that has been great.