one hell of a year

this has been one hell of a year... i dont even know if i can put it all into words....
lets see if i can start..
first off i had a good family friend die of cancer. then, my dad dies in june unexpectedly and derailed my whole life... now a few weeks ago i had a friend commit suicide in a brutal way. and finally, this last weekend i moved out because arby and i broke up a couple months ago,and i am really if-y on the place i moved to.... SO GUESS WHAT??? i have had a migraine for 3 days. i have been in to get 2 morphine shots and taken enough pain medication to kill a small horse. so here i am feeling totally out of control and like i am lost. i hate having a migraine but what i hate even more is that i take the lame medications and feel like i am high as a kite and say and do things i dont remember. the stress should pass as well as the migraines.

ttyl8r