I h ave got to get to a meeting in Tempe so, more riviting stuff to come.....

If you try, I'll try...try to let it go...

Forgive? sounds good. Forget, I’m not sure I could. They say time heals everything but I’m still waiting. I’m through with doubt there’s nothing left for me to figure out. I’ve paid a price and I’ll keep paying, But, I’m not ready to make nice I’m not ready to back down! I’m still mad as hell and I don’t have time to go round and round and round. It’s too late to make it right, I probably wouldn’t if I could ‘Cause I’m mad as hell can’t bring myself to do what it is you think I should. I know you said can’t you just get over it...It turned my whole world around and I kind of like it......I made my bed and I sleep like a baby with no regrets and I don’t mind sayin’ it. It’s a sad sad story when a mother will teach her daughter that she ought to hate a perfect stranger and how in the world can the words that I said send somebody so over the edge that they’d write me a letter Sayin’ that I better shut up or my life will be over!!!

Forgive, sounds good...Forget, I’m not sure I could
They say time heals everything but I’m still waiting

Me at Music Showcase!!!

Keira and I at Drift

The Front!!

The New House,,,

my weekend... IF you can call it that!!

I hate being sick!!!

I was sick all weekend...YUCK! Winnie like me being home tho! I rented a few movies and we just kinda chilled out.
We got the DVR(TIVO) all installed and got it all hooked up to start recording my fav shows I dont have time to watch (like Starting Over)! I skimmed the pool, which is proving to be way more work than its worth! I have only been swimming once and it was SO cold!!! The dog goes swimming like all the time. Thats why I just cant put in a doggy door, because when I am not home I dont want her swimming and then coming into the house and going an napping on my pillow or on the couch. Those are her favorite spots!! She loves it!

My friend Amie and I went to last chance on Sat morning and to lunch and shopping. After that I was pooped. I got a call about 3 saying some friend were going to Sugar Daddy's but I was just too sick to go. I would have liked to but.... Anyways Eric passed his MCAT's and they were having a little surprise party for him!!! Too bad I was uh, YUCK!

I gotta get going I have a blitz and then I have to go out and visit a client on Camelback....

Have a great day!!!!

PS.... I heart the Curious George Soundtrack! It's so good...

Welcome to my MySpace!!

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People are always saying gratitude is a great 'place' to be....

What are my Top 5 life moments? The moments that have shaped, procured, and influenced me?

1. Although I do not remember this, My mom giving me to my grandparents for the first 8 months of my life because she was devastatingly ill.

2. My mom marrying my step dad at the age of 5. It will prove to be the biggest change in my life at the age of 16.

3. Meeting my first love, Marshal Parks.

4. Moving into a foster home at age 16.

5. Meeting Mark/Moving to AZ.

Not all of these make sence in this order, nor do they have to.... But this is how I got where I am today.

the WIND!!!

The wind really wrecks things!!

This weekend it blew dirt trash and gunk into my sparklie fun swimmig pool...
I woke up saturday morning to find that i had a layer of mud in my pool!!
and here I am, Winnie and I, looking at the pool thinking 'how are we gunna clean this'? Last night it was windy too... and it broke a part of a tree in my backyard and it fell right into the pool!! Uggghhh! I think I got myself in too DEEP with this pool thing@!

Last night!!

Last night was our quarterly kick off for our department. CRAZY! It was at Half Moon, this cool bar/Resturaunt. http://www.halfmoonsportsgrill.com/ The food was SO good, and the drinks? Well, let's just say we all had our share. after 4 lemon drops, 1 red bull drink, 1 comakazi shot and 1 Albama Slamma I was good. It was really fun. It was a rock and roll theme, and we played some guitar game on PS2. The same game that we played a few weeks ago in our apprentice contest. Anyways, it was fun...Needless to say, the office is very quiet this afternoon, and we all came scraggelin' late!!!

It was a good time for all!!!

Croc's

Anyone who knows me, know's that I HEART CROCS!!!! They are amazingly ugly, so much that they are cute!

Reading the newspaper this morning for work, I saw that the AZ Republic, wrote an article on them. Well? It said that crocs are going to be even bigger this summer. THAT GRINDS my GEARS!! HOW can a plastic sandal originally made for yoga be so cool? I love them cause they are comfy and come in tons of colors. I love color! TRENDY? huh? I just thought they were comfy and versatile. I guess that just goes to show you what is considered trendy can be so off the wall!!!

Anyways, I heart my croc's. I dont wear them to be cool!!

M.D.

Jack Johnson cd's out the f-ing window!!

Are you kidding me???

I keep having this dream that I dont graduate from high school. I dunno what thats all bout? Maybe it's just my transition into life without M, and it's hard to do all this without him.I know its been a while, but... I feel like I am doing really well, I need to show him up. he has told me that I cant do ANYthing for so long.
I go to yoga... I have a puppy, good friends. But what is with the dream? I mean its like i get to the end of school and then at the graduation they tell me that I cant graduate! I cant even analyze that, I dont know where to start.

AHHHAHAH!!! Maybe it is my own guilt. Maybe I am trying to tell myself that I dont deserve something because I have not been totally honest about stuff? I dunno.

I feel guilty, but there is nothing to can do about it. I have been threatened to be jailed, sued, and his mother even tried to say she would put me in a meantal hospital! He will never really know the real deal. I must feel guilty. I know I do, but I REALLY CANT DO ANYTHING. I dont want to do anythng. I am the enemy.

I went out to Avondale a few weeks ago to meet someone for lunch and I was like DODGING corners, trying to stay away from people. I was scared. I really was. What if I see his mom? We have to share this state!~!! And even worse than that, one of my clients lives on the same street as she does! I cant go out there!! I wont!!! NO ONE CAN MAKE ME!!! '

oh really?

well, it's a miracle that I made it thru the weekend! Moving, hosting and working! No wonder I didnt just drop dead. I am now all moved...Have hosted the New Times Music Showcase and am back to just working and resting.

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