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Tuesday, August 28, 2007

The Taurean's characteristics are solidity, practicality, extreme determination and strength of will - no one will ever drive them, but they will willingly and loyally follow a leader they trust. They are stable, balanced, conservative good, law-abiding citizens and lovers of peace, possessing all the best qualities of the bourgeoisie. As they have a sense of material values and physical possessions, respect for property and a horror of falling into debt, they will do everything in their power to maintain the security of the status quo and be somewhat hostile to change.

Mentally, they are keen-witted and practical more often than intellectual, but apt to become fixed in their opinions through their preference for following accepted and reliable patterns of experience. Their character is generally dependable, steadfast, prudent, just, firm and unshaken in the face of difficulties. Their vices arise from their virtues, going to extremes on occasion,such as sometimes being too slavish to the conventions they admire.

On rare occasions a Taurean may be obstinately and exasperatingly self-righteous, unoriginal, rigid, ultraconservative, argumentative, querulous bores, stuck in a self-centered rut. They may develop a brooding resentment through nursing a series of injuries received and, whether their characters are positive or negative, they need someone to stroke their egos with a frequent, "Well Done!" Most Taureans are not this extreme though.

They are faithful and generous friends with a great capacity for affection, but rarely make friends with anyone outside their social rank, to which they are ordinarily excessively faithful. In the main, they are gentle, even tempered, good natured, modest and slow to anger, disliking quarreling and avoiding ill-feeling. If they are provoked, however, they can explode into violent outbursts of ferocious anger in which they seem to lose all self-control. Equally unexpected are their occasional sallies into humor and exhibitions of fun.

Although their physical appearance may belie it, they have a strong aesthetic taste, enjoying art, for which they may have a talent, beauty (recoiling from anything sordid or ugly) and music. They may have a strong, sometimes unconventional, religious faith. Allied to their taste for all things beautiful is a love for the good things of life pleasure, comfort, luxury and good food and wine and they may have to resist the temptation to over indulgence, leading to drunkenness, gross sensuality, and covetousness.

In their work, Taureans are industrious and good craftspeople, and are not afraid of getting their hands dirty. They are reliable, practical, methodical and ambitious, within a framework of obedience to superiors. They are at their best in routine positions of trust and responsibility, where there is little need of urgency and even less risk of change, and a pension at the end. Yet they are creative and good founders of enterprises where the rewards of their productiveness come from their own work and not that of others.
They can flourish in many different trades and professions: banking, architecture, building, almost any form of bureaucracy, auctioneering, farming, medicine, chemistry, industry Taureans make good managers and foremen surveying, insurance, education and, perhaps surprisingly, music and sculpture. They make an ideal trustee or guardian, and can attain eminence as a chef. Some Taureans are gifted enough in singing to become opera stars or to excel in more popular types of music.

They are more than averagely amorous and sensually self-conscious, but sexually straightforward and not given to experiment. They make constant, faithful, home loving spouses and thoughtful, kindly parents, demanding too much of neither their spouses nor children. They can be over possessive and may sometimes play the game of engineering family roles for the pleasure of making up the quarrel. If anyone offends their amour proper they can be a determined enemy, though magnanimous in forgiveness if their opponent makes an effort to meet them halfway.

No other sign in the zodiac is closer to earth then Taurus. The main objective in leading a Taurean life is primarily (though not entirely) to maintain stability and physical concerns. Your inner spiritual sense longs for earthly harmony and wholesomeness. When you fully understand this, and work toward this end, you will no longer need to blindly reassure yourself with external possessions and comforts. A realization that finding this inner peace will cause all of the above mentioned positive things will overtake you and your life will be very full.

Ultimately the Taurean needs to discover their truest, deepest and highest values. When they know what is truly valuable, they are no longer chained to people and to things that have to do with lesser values. The greatest indication of value to a Taurean is beauty, which cannot be owned, only appreciated.

Possible Health Concerns...

its funny how things happen. its just that sometimes something seeming so big and meaningful, turn out to be nothing. it's those times when you dont think anything significant will come, it does. i love that about life, that u dont even have to make or create things in your life, they just find you. the people who are supposed to be in your life, just find you. and those that need you, you just find. its the little tiny things that make life and people and places so awesome. the more i live, the more i know. And simple, really is true. i dont even really know where im going with all of this, but im in a good place in my life. thats kinda ironic too... i just had a friend ask me how i am doing so well after my dad has died. but i couldnt anwser that. i still cant. all i know is that i feel an inner calmness. im not upset, although i do get that way at times.... im not crying daily like i was for about a month... the people in my life have just helped so much...

buffy, you have been a life saver. you have no idea how much you mean to me.

bradley, you were the first person who comforted me when i came back, and you have everyday since then. connections like ours are rare, and so special.

ashley, you are my bestest friend! you will never know how much your firendship has brought to me. i hope that i can someday repay you for all the kindness you have given.

mom, you are just an older version of me. or do i say that i am just a mini-you??
thnak you for being the person that i can come to. i know none of this has been easy on you either. i appreciate you and all that you are.

aunt cheryl, you're like my mom. you were there the second i was born, and you have been with me my entire life. good times and bad, i know i can count on you. you and uncle d have NO idea what it means to me to have the 2 of you. its like a second family all over again. and now, you are all i have left of my daddy. i love it when you say i am just like him. i really am. i know he is gone, but not forgotten. i love u auntie.

at times i honestly overflow with wonderful feelings of gratitude, and joy. its these times when i know that i am my heart and my soul and my meaning are truely aligned with what is meant for me. i think that when u align yourself with what you really want, things just get so much easier. i dont really kno9w what i am trying to say here, i am just a bumbbleing idiot at this point. so i bid u adu

Thursday, August 02, 2007

a bay bay...

hello world!!!

okay so everybodys been trippin' that i have been gone so long. well. let me tell you all why....

on june 4th my dad died a bit unexpectedly. so, since then in has been a mad dash to nor cal every so long. aside from all that i am in school...in a shitty relationship, in the fucking desert in the summer, and in the worst funk i have even been in in my life!!!

anyways tomorrow i will spill my guts to you about MB. there's a lot to spill...

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